Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in Bobby's LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 19th, 2009
4:23 pm	goodbye, patrick thank you for understanding and caring about me
Sunday, November 9th, 2008
10:01 pm	oh dear god (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
12:32 pm	I have servers they are all hotswap SATA and are sexy (21 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 29th, 2008
2:26 pm	The fed bailout bill failed at the house level. They're scrambling to get it re-voted and passed, but I don't see it happening at this stage. There's just no way to come up with $700 billion without taxpayers absorbing some of the cost, which they shouldn't need to be doing. Besides.. the taxpayers are paying for it on credit so essentially they're paying for the bailout using the bailout money which doesn't even exist yet. How meta is that! The next year is going to be pretty interesting. From what I can see, the biggest floundering banks have now either fallen or been rescued already, so this mess is going to become ridiculously complex. (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 26th, 2008
4:32 am	I'm a person who's been convinced for a long time that medication is not the answer to a lot of people's mental woes. Observing people is something that I do a lot. Some people in my life have taken medication for assorted reasons over the years, and it had seriously mixed results for them. I never really questioned the issue of medication until I was prescribed it myself a number of years ago. When I took the prescribed medication (celexa and seroquel, in my instance) it had an extremely adverse effect on me. Instead of making my problems go away, or reducing their intensity, the medication had the exact opposite effect and intensified my problems to the point where I was inflicting harm upon myself. At that point I stopped taking the medication and spoke to my therapist about it.. and they sent me to another therapist. It made me question the way the mental health profession works and still does to this day - are drugs a prescription for so many people's problems because so many people have problems that there's not enough therapy to go around? In discussion about the drug issue with someone recently, they told me that they'd considered taking medication. This is a person who's doing decently in life, can hold a job and can do well enough for themselves and has goals in mind.. but they wonder if taking medication for ADHD or the like would make them do better and give them that push "over the hump" on the road to success. I personally don't believe medication is the answer in such instances because I believe that a lot of people's problems stem from their own insecurities and personalities. When they take medication for such reasons, the medication sometimes works, sometimes doesn't, but because the application of medication and the results can vary so widely, the effects become subjective. If a person takes medication which makes them focus a bit better on work or goals, but alters their personality and behaviors in the process, was the desired result achieved? Is that person becoming the person they're supposed to be, or are they focusing better at the cost of being who they are? And I ask, is it worth the risk. With so many therapists prescribing pills for virtually everything nowadays, it's almost like a crapshoot or trial-and-error methodology being used. T: Try this. P: Okay. T: How's it working? P: My grades went up a point but I get really moody and feel like crap sometimes. T: Well, that's better than it was before I guess. P: I guess. T: Maybe we'll try this instead. That sort of result just isn't ideal, and I wonder if better results could be obtained through non-medication methods - but such methods cost more money and take longer with no guaranteed results either. The whole science of mental health strikes me as akin to alchemy sometimes - the placebo effect probably has almost as much effect on patients as the medication itself does, IMHO. The one method which seems to get people guaranteed results is lifestyle change. Eating healthier, working out, giving one's self a routine, getting out of and avoiding stressful situations.. those things seem to guarantee that a person will feel better in life when they're done. But those are choices that involve a lot of hard work, and nobody else can do it for you, making it one of the hardest therapeutic paths to take. (37 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 24th, 2008
5:26 pm	WHAT NEW YORK (CNN) -- Republican presidential candidate Sen. John McCain announced Wednesday that he is suspending his campaign to return to Washington and focus on the "historic" crisis facing the U.S. economy. McCain said it was time for both parties to come together to solve economic crisis. Democratic rival Sen. Barack Obama said at a news conference later Wednesday that he and McCain had spoken by phone and had agreed to issue a joint statement about shared principles in the approach to resolving the economic crisis. But he disagreed with McCain's call for postponing Friday's first presidential debate in Oxford, Mississippi. "It's my belief that this is exactly the time when the American people need to hear from the person will be the next president," Obama said. "It is going to be part of the president's job to deal with more than one thing at once. It's more important than ever to present ourselves to the American people." What the hell is going on here. The economic crisis is nasty and looming, but candidates for the presidency shouldn't be trying to dive into it before even being elected. Either McCain is suicidal or brilliant. I still can't figure the man and his campaign out. Obama's response amounts to "uh.. no get back here" which is what I'd say too, so props there I guess. (42 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
1:47 pm	Thank you for your recent auction-style listing on eBay. Unfortunately, we removed the following item(s): 140XXXXXX894 - Windows XP Home Edition SP1a software w/COA because Microsoft reported it to us for violating their intellectual property rights. When eBay is notified by a rights owner of an intellectual property rights infringement, eBay must remove the item in order to meet certain legal requirements. eBay has restricted your ability to list new items as a result of a policy violation. We'd be happy to lift this restriction once you've completed a brief tutorial about this policy. The next time you sign in to your eBay account, click on "Sell" and "Sell Your Item." You'll then be asked to take the tutorial. Once you've completed it, you can begin selling again immediately. The "tutorial" was asking me stuff like "if you had some fake Gucci watches do you think you'd be allowed to list them on ebay" with multiple choice answers, where they practically give you the answer in the question. What a fucking joke. Oh no I am listing sealed non-branded OEM software with COA and providing it with bundled hardware that allows me to comply with the license requirements, software I've listed like 20 times before, but now I can't I guess! Do they even sell XP Home in stores anymore? Oh but they didn't end my auction for an identically packaged OEM copy of Windows Me. Also eBay's email replaced quotation marks (") and apostrophes (') with question marks (?) because their mailer software is written in perl and hasn't been updated since 1998 or so. Hello you are a multibillion dollar company could you please write some software that doesn't suck ass tia. (16 Comments |Comment on this)
11:56 am	US inadmissability waiver progress Criminal background check done, clear Fingerprinting done Drug test passed Lawyer fees paid to do: FOIA request for immigration records showing what I'm inadmissable for Letters of recommendation x10 Get passport Second drug test in 30 days Final letters explaining my interest in entering the united states I AM COMING BACK (36 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 22nd, 2008
5:32 am	My tweets for today 07:01 woke up # 09:22 yawned and drank apple juice ugh # 09:24 burped # 09:27 hmm uh # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 h # 09:36 j # 09:36 h # 09:45 thoug # 09:48 peter jackson # 09:55 mm bacon # 10:30 @BlueMoonWolf *grins and thrusts harder between your rigid cheeks, his claws digging deep into your rump as he howls out in orgasmic extasy, his j* # 10:33 kleenex # 10:34 paper towel fuck # 11:47 gonna put an hp adapter in you foffy # 14:36 Seagate ST380811AS # 14:44 pho # 19:00 this phon esuck # 22:13 on phone bbl # 23:01 bbl # 23:59 @BlueMoonWolf hmm yea i see # 23:59 @BlueMoonWolf oh # 23:59 nini # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter This is the new web, all form, no content. I weep. Please stop. (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 21st, 2008
2:44 pm	The picture meme, oh god. • Take a picture of yourself right now. • Don't change your clothes. Don't fix your hair. • Post that picture with no editing. • Post these instructions with your picture. (28 Comments |Comment on this)
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Wednesday, September 17th, 2008
3:11 pm	internet rumors starting to say WaMu is next to go tits-up and get bought / bailed out Looks like the "crisis" is worsening. I guess if a depression somehow did occur out of this all, and we got thrust into a high inflation period, it'd render my remaining mortgage and credit card debt much easier to pay off since it's all accumulated in "old dollars". People's theories / thoughts on the current crisis, discuss? (25 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 14th, 2008
11:10 pm	Gawd damn. Remnants of Hurricane Ike plowing through here, winds around 40mph, gusts at around 70. Hopefully the big gross tree a couple houses over from me doesn't snap a limb or something. I've been keeping tabs on the situation in Houston and it looks pretty dismal. What gets me is watching the story develop, the response times have been pretty slow. A lot of red tape seems to be blocking people's efforts to get basic necessities restored - power could have been restored for a lot more people if helicopters were permitted to take off to do aerial assessments sooner, etc. It's sad when Wal-Mart stores are up and open again before people a block away from them have potable drinking water or electricity. Why people would want to live along the Gulf Coast has always staggered me. The only tangible reasoning I've thought of is "it's cheap" or "they like it hot". To me, putting up with the risk of losing all of your worldly possessions, your job, or potentially your life in the event of a major storm is just too much. With global sea temperatures on the rise, it's only going to continue getting worse. If hurricanes like this start hitting the coast about once every two years, I think a lot more people are going to seriously start reevaluating living there. This storm hit as only a Category 2, if it had been a Category 5, the entire city may have been leveled. (21 Comments |Comment on this)
1:54 am	Cleaning house ...metaphorically and physically. I've been making a lot of changes in my life of late and am entering a new phase, which is cleaning up my social and home life. Cleaning up my house, which is a total mess.. and readjusting my social life a bit more. I need to change how I present myself to the world. I'm not gonna apologize for things I've said and done in the past, but I'm not gonna keep doing the same things, either. As adults we grow and change, and hey so do I. Sooooooo all the old entries and things in this journal are gone and I'll be posting about different things from now on. You can keep reading... or not, up to you.